I think (and I said before) that you do need to see a professional. Doctor/ therapist/ psychiatrist etc we can try to help only up to the point. Having such extreme difficulty connecting to people tells me that it's something that requires some work or perhaps some medical advise or at least therapy. It sounds more than having a bit of difficulty. No one needs to be that depressed and not try something a bit more.

You are not boring as you are clearly suffering but I do think you need to get some help beyond what we can provide

I am not saying we won't help you but I feel you need more in addition

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