Skeez.......you get this! Thank you for the replies. To add to the fact that we are "online" to find help or help others; says that we are out there, but Why not in person? While I try to help with advice or listen online, I personally miss the face to face interaction with people. Then when you actually get a friend or family member to listen; they either get that blank look in their eyes or give you so many suggestions, gee you've never thought of those before, yeah right! you wonder why you even bothered in the 1st place.
Shattered....I also felt that way the day I signed up here, because literally no one cared in my living life, as in person to person days. Yes, thank goodness for my mom caring and coming over, even though I cried for her not to, she has enough on her own plate. I have 2 girl friends that listen, 1 who is on meds recently for her own mental health and has marriage issues, etc. The other friend also has marriage issues, but I'm not sure that she gets the whole mental health issues either. She will suggest to me: that God doesn't give us more than we can handle at a time. I tell her, I don't feel like that is necessarily true, at least how I'm feeling and she gets the blank stares. So what I'm saying is while I do have some people in my life, at that time I felt helpless. I couldn't get a hold of them and when I do, well they can't really help me live, if I feel I can't go on. So, I had to look for help elsewhere when somehow this group came up.
lj......I'm sorry to hear that's how you are feeling, only after being deceased to have people care? That makes me so angry, even the discussions when people seem to really only attend a Wedding or a Funeral, then the tears come or the conversations. Why not when you're living and need someone then?
Moon.....Nice to meet you, too bad under these circumstances. Are you not with your bf of 10 years any longer? Sorry to hear about your Aunt! My dear dad passed away 10 years ago and that still upsets me, he was my best friend. I've also heard the: you're strong T, you even have it on your back (Strength tat). Well, that may be so, but I'm also human and I don't have all the answers, especially when my mind isn't doing so well. I'm sure we would all like to decide to be Happy, buy deciding and Doing are way different in my mind. I TRY everyday, doesn't always make it so. I wish more people got that!