It was really nice to read this. Perhaps think about what was so good about that day, what made it go so well, and speak to your boyfriend about how he and you together might foster the occurrence of more such days.

You are very hard on yourself in these posts. I wonder if you would be equally critical of someone else who was in the same sort of situation that you are. (I suspect not.) If not, I wonder if it would be possible to extend the compassion that you would give to others to yourself, now.