i went out with my sister to do a couple errands and help keep an eye on the baby and while i was out i had an idea, i mean i have thought about asking before but i didnt want to because im nervous if it is not normal and would embarrass me... i dont like conflict :/

but i just thought maybe i could try to write a small bit of what goes on in my mind in what i think is a typical morning from period i wake up to few moments after or whatever... i cantt write everything for a whole day, plus i dont wanna write some of the thoughts

but i wanted to ask because i change point of views throughout the dialog.. and sometimes multiple times in 1 "statement" or whatever you would call a thought/train of thought? and it gets really weird sometimes...
also while im going through this kind of thing im not really focused on the world.. its when i feel the most dissociated... if i am infact experiencing dissociation :/ but if someone calls me or catches my attention its like everything gets silent and i am focused on whatever drew my attention?
atleast momentarily until i drift off - my most used sentance is probably "sorry, what?" and "mhmm"
i kind of thought these things were part of ADHD so... i dunno

this is just a few moments of dialog... from me waking up to getting out the bed pretty much
not wanting to prove anything or not but just wondering about if people think like that? i drive myself crazy sometimes, especially when i start getting negative...
i tried to space each line as one thought would be... like it pops up and then the next will come to and so forth... sometimes really fast :/
like it seems so fast that its like im saying it at the same time but that just confuses me

sorry i type so much, im gonna take a chill pill, thanks for not yelling at me!
i digress: