It's hard to say i was very off and on. I'd binge hard for a few weeks and then stop for a week or so. Kind of to keep withdrawals on the "mild" side. I overdosed a couple of times from this. My longest clean time in the last 6ish years was last year for 6 months. Problem with me and drugs is they make me crazy, suicidal, aggressive, unstable, depressed, just a big ball of insanity that creeps up on me even after 1 use. I'm ashamed how i've acted with friends and other people while on drugs, i really need to be 100% sober, even though i still like to drink on the occasion. People never know what to expect from me and i know i'm better than that. It has ruined so many things for me. Luckily exercise helps, i'm better when it's nice out, but we rarely have sun here so it's difficult so stay consistent. Then i get depressed that i screw up all my progress. Sometimes i consider moving somewhere else, maybe better weather would help me.