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Originally Posted by lucidity11
While in session I was completely dissociated when I thought of the hallway that used to be in my childhood house. There was a lot of violence in that house. I also witnessed a lot of violence in that house. Unpredictable explosive violence. It went on for 10 years steady. By the time I was 11 I was staying out of the house for as long as possible. I was also abused as a child, but the biggest issue seems to be the violence I witnessed. Can witnessing violence for such a long period of time cause dissociation? I would think it could, I just want some feed back. Thanks
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most definitely. i also grew up in an abusive home for a few years, from about 6 to 11, maybe a bit earlier as my older two sisters apparently were violent with each other even before my first stepdad came into the picture.
there was so much stuff that i have been told of things i was there for but do not remember including two people from outside the family who told me weird things regarding me (crying but not saying why when home alone with him, etc.). i thought maybe they lied, but two separate people said something similar.
the things i saw and heard did the most damage and caused a huge degree of dissociation. the other trauma i had also did..so it all compounded.
it seems like between five and 10, it was a lot of different traumas inside the house and outside, so nowhere was safe.
but, yes...that kind of thing definitely can cause a large degree of dissociation.
i can remember during a violent episode towards a sister, i dissociated. in my head, i went to my mom and stepdad's room to get a gun and make him stop. in reality, i hadn't moved at all.
i also have one memory where i only remember the after part, so my older sisters had to fill me in on what happened to lead up to things. and my mom also told me sometimes she would lock us in her room with her to protect us from him..i have zero memory of that.