T and I talk about our relationship. I've told her that I don't love her, but wish I did because I miss the feelings. I've told her that she's more than just a doctor to me, but she's not a friend. We talk about termination at least once a month (this helps me cope with my fear of abandonment and to keep things in perspective). We make sure that I'm comfortable with her and she checks-in to make sure I'm not upset with her (this is due to our rough beginnings). We've talked about how some of the things she has done has made me feel special (i.e. emails). I wish we could talk about her perspective more often. I don't push because I know she has tighter boundaries than I'm still used to. I know she cares. I don't have to ask, though hearing it would be nice.