Yes, today I talked with T, we had our first session since the break. He is going to talk with his colleague and ask her a few questions for me. If I see her, I will also have my T available to me, he said he will make himself available to me. I will then return to him for the rest of my healing, anger release and so on.

It was a calm meeting actually, we discussed what happened in the break down in communication. I agreed that I have to tell him if he is helping or not. I asked him that I know it is up to me whether or not I continue with him and he would never drop me as a client, but do YOU feel comfortable working with me on these next issues, he said yes, and that I may have to guide him on what I want.

We ended our session with him asking me what I wanted out of him. He feels that I am taking the ball and running with this. He used riding a bike as a analogy, when I was teaching my kids how to ride, you held on and didn't let go, the more confident they became the less I had to hang on, until I was just standing behind them with my hand near the seat, they thought I was hanging on, but I wasn't. He said that is what I am doing now, he is there, ready to catch me if I fall, but he thinks that I am doing and progressing alot on my own. So now I have to figure out where I want him to go with me, what I want him to do to help me. Part of me feels like he is giving me back some power that I have never felt I had, and part of me is scared to take that step off the cliff, I know he is there to catch me, but feeling that being the one to make the decisions and control the healing from this point on is scary!!!!!!!! He is waiting for an answer from me, he told me to think about it and email him with what I have decided........any ideas???

I am scared, nervous, and still feeling some abandonment issues.......going into inner child work, is not his speality he will help me, he will refer me to his colleague, he will do what ever it is I want.........never had anyone tell me it is in my power to handle my own things.........scared!!