Have been really irritable and feel disconnected today. pacing a lot this evening. I hate this so much. I had the best 2 days mon and tues that I've had in a long time. Once again, I thought on monday, maybe, just maybe, i had things back in order. Then i felt kinda off yesterday but ok, and today as the days' went on I do not feel right. I feel cloudy in my head, i feel agitated, not at anyone just like I'm going to explode. I'm so sick of this. I don't know if it's from increasing lamictal last week, but that doesn't make sense with how good i did earlier in the week. I mean, I felt perfect, was so productive at work, etc. I just feel like there's a glass wall between me and the rest of the world right now. I have a garden and it doesn't feel like it's mine when I was out there earlier. I did some work in it when I got home from work and I don't really remember doing it and it seems like someone else did it. I know it was me. I'm so sick and tired of this i want to have a normal life. This is not normal. I feel like I'[ve been using this board a lot and am glad it's here. there are other people that have the same illness I hate even saying i have an illness. it makes it sound like i did something wrong.