Luckily I do not

I had two alcoholic parents and did not like what it did to them. Losing my self is my greatest fear. It is why I never do drugs (I have done some, but not in decades. One bad incident soured me on it)

Also, all alcohol, except gin, tastes absolutely terrible to me. Wine is like rancid grape juice, most clear booze tastes like sharp mouthwash and beer like someone peed in a badly soured soft drink. Gin merely tastes like i am licking a pine tree, but with tonic I can tolerate it so I won't embarrass people at a bar by not drinking at all

I do feel its call. Alcoholism runs through my family liked a greased pig through a herd of hillbillies

Be strong. We all have our demons and they are all mean drunks