I'm the exact way as her. I've been abused almost my whole life. I don't know how to love. Very insecure over everything panic attacks all the time. Feeling no one can love me. She's doing her best.

You're doing an amazing job. Keep it up. I want someone to so that for me. As a guy I have to be there like you are and living with her experience currently.

Relationships put a lot of stress on me. Where i can't stand the other person because I'm afraid to face losing that person at the same time afraid to not ever help myself.

I am exactly that.