there's about an eight mile stretch of highway that really really scares me. it is were both accidents happened, my car crash and the one I drove by that was eerily similar to mine.

I saw my therapist person about three or so weeks ago to get evaluated for PTSD. and he said that I had the characteristics but not full-fledged. cuz I don't have any physical symptoms, or physiological symptoms I think he called them. and I seem to do okay with driving, as long as there aren't vehicles behind me.

so the other day, something interesting happened. I was driving on that stretch of road I just mentioned above. and I was trying to figure out what I was going to do cuz I was getting closer to my turn and a vehicle was pretty close behind me. so I slowed way down so they could go around me like a mile or two before my turn - which they did.

but as I got closer to my turn, I got this pain in the front part of my one shoulder, like right by the collier-bone. and let's face it, I know I still have a bunch of injuries and pains from the crash, believe me I do. but this, this was new. I think like ten to fifteen minutes later it was gone. and hasn't been back since.

does this mean I'm not as okay with my trauma as I maybe thought I was??

(I'm just asking you guys cuz my t-guy is gone for the next month doing training for the military, so I can't reach him.)