It's time to go to the doctor about this. If you broke your arm, wouldn't you go get it set properly? You may have some condition that can greatly improve with the right meds, or at least talk therapy.

There's another thing you do that causes you grief that I've noticed. You disagree with people. People don't like that. It puts them off. It only makes conflict. I'd recommend to try to stop doing that in social situations. I don't do it. If someone says something I disagree with, I mostly just don't react. No conflict.

You have made friends here, even though you don't want to believe that. When people get to know you, they care about you, flaws and all.