Well I recon I can add my two cents worth...I have been on Prozac for about 8 years now...When I first started taking it...omg it was like the miracle drug, but slowly the depression came back and the manic episodes also. I was acting out sexually and really didn't care who I hurt in the process, most of all myself. I think that the saying "to thine own self be true" is the best way to look at life as we know it. We must take care of ourselves before we can take care of others.
As far as your mother goes, I think that Freud was probably on to something when he said that all of our problems come from our mothers.

My T suggested that I write a letter to my mother (don't mail it) telling her all the problems that she caused me in my life. I haven't been able to bring myself to write it yet, but I think of it often.
Currently I am taking Lamactil (going up to 200mg next month) and abilify 15 mg. I am supposed to still be taking my prozac (80 mg) and the topamax (200 mg) but I can't afford them so I picked the drugs that I thought would do me the best....all of this through research. Right now I feel like I am making headway with my problems and mood swings..who knows what tomorrow will bring. We just have to live life one day at a time. Maybe you could do a bit of research for your self (there is a drug link here on psych central and there are links to information about various diseases not to mention the quizzes that you can take to help diagnose your problem...but remember you shouldn't diagnose yourself...let your pdoc do that.). Take the information that you have come up with and show your pdoc...it could be your saving grace.

You are truely a brave soul to pour your heart out here...even with the anonomity that is provided here.

sorry bout getting on mine....