Hi al
I ameturning to the forums due to unresolved issues.
I am seeking some thoughts/views regarding my likelong habit of alienating myself from others, nice and not so nice people alike!
I have obsessive thoughts and paranoia when I perceive slights and imagined rejection -cant 'deal with the idea. This is at work and with friends, although haven't got many now.
I really dislike myself in all areas, althoughhave flashes of feeling happy, but these are brief as a downer is always close, after say, an argument, issue at home which can be fairly minor, and have had a breakdown in thepast due to work issue with colleagues.
This is sadly, not a new issue for me, and even as achild remember having friendship issues. My mum never approved of my friends though, and would be critical of them to me.
Anyway, I am wondering why this happens. I have sought therapy before but got scared when she gave me an easter egg!😯(at easter).,and never went back.
I freak out when others are too kind or get too close.
I feel like I nevet fit in and want to, but easily get irritated or hurt.
What to do?
😕