Hi Elektra

"actually right now i expect too much from people but always get disappointed"
I'm kind of wondering here whether you actually do expect too much from people or whether your expectations are reasonable and those people have just let you down..........
But either way.........it sounds like you're maybe basing too much of your own self worth/self esteem on others or the way they treat you, maybe????

yeah i dont put any boundaries. to the worthy people im not of interest whatsoever.
Well, those people aren't really worthy IMO if they blank you because you're you
Maybe try to hold out for people who are really worthy?? That kind of people can come along

T, i have changed way too much of T. can they actually do anything? lol what support? there are no others. when things got even worse in 6 years im guessing there wont be any miracles. thanks
I'd say that good T's can sometimes help a lot over time (and it's not necessarily something you can put a time scale on), but of course you hear a lot about T's who "aren't so good", I don't know whether yours is that kind or not though...........
And by others..........I meant people like on here
But...........I'm reading in between the lines...........emotional childhood abuse????
If that's the case.........and I know that probably isn't the only thing causing you pain but..............a couple of links I've found for you:
ASCA - Adult Survivors of Child Abuse
and
http://www.havoca.org/
I honestly don't know if they may be useful to you.........but worth a try

Alison