Sorry you are feeling so bleak, Lifeistoopainful! The Skeezyks is solitary (although he should mention that he is married & he's old... which he believes makes a difference...) Beyond being married, however, he keeps as close to 100% to himself as possible. Some might say the Skeezyks' lifestyle is dysfunctional. But, after many years of struggle, it is the lifestyle he chooses to pursue.

In a sense, perhaps, the Skeezyks has stopped fighting. But, in another sense, he has simply modified the fight. Instead of continuing to fight his way through the outside world, he now strives to bask within the light of solitude. From the Skeezyks' perspective, there is nothing in the outside world that is worth the bother. And, in fact, there is a lot out there that is best avoided. The Skeezyks' point of view is that he is as much alive when alone as he would be were he to venture out... perhaps more so.

Human beings, as we're often told, are social animals. And there's a lot of social pressure to get everyone out there (preferably spending $$$!) The Skeezyks would like to suggest that there is not a gram of wisdom to be had out there... just a lot of argument & delusion. From the Skeezyks' perspective, being out in the world is sort-of walking through a mine field unprotected. It's mostly just a matter of which bomb you'll detonate!

So, with all of that said, from the Skeezyks' perspective, solitude is not darkness, but rather it is the one place there is the potential for light; & choosing to keep the outside world at bay is not dysfunctional. It is a logical response to an insane world. It's all a matter of perspective... But then the Skeezyks is old. It makes a difference...

I offer you my best wishes with the hope that you will be able to find your way out of the darkness.