I think the reason you feel like a bad person is because you are feeling the guilt of hiding your true feeling and your true self from your husband. You are not a bad person. But if you keep hiding from the truth the guiltwill jjust grow... I think you need to open up to your husband about your sexuality. Ppl can occasionally surprise us. You obviously care about him at least enough that you are concerned for his feelings... I would think and talk to a T about where your unhappiness and guilt stem from... I think if you keep part of yourself locked away would cause anyone great unhappiness. At any rate the only "bad" I can see that you are currently doing is allowing whatever you fear from telling him the truth. I know it's easier said than done but pretending to be someone who is not your truth and staying with someone to "not hurt them" is only a road to devistation. It not fair to either of you. And although the truth may seem harsh and the aftermath is usually gonna hurt... That pain is fair less the sooner you come clean. Think about 5yrs down the road... if you continue on the current status quo...then inevitably you can't take it anymore or he finds out what you haven't told him so how either just figures it out or around the way...That would just be cruel to both of you. You are carrying a heavy load.... Only the truth can set you free.