As always i appreciate the replies. I'm feeling alright, wish i could stay sober 100% of the time. I also wish i had someone to hang out with on the weekend. Get a little tired of always being by myself or with my unstable family, that's mainly why i dabble with drugs. I'm good by myself, but it gets a little excessive... Or at least i'm with the wrong people too much, my family has lots of issues, but i'm the only one that works on mine, so when i do something they tell me to take my meds. Drugs bring out borderline traits in me, but i use them because i'm lonely so it's a cycle of loneliness and pushing people away because i'm on drugs.

Anyway i'm just ranting, weekends get me down a little bit. I really mean it when i say you guys with BP are awesome though, i find myself laughing over your posts constantly and really feel for you all. Don't change who you are! Just work on issues that get in the way of your happiness.