I'm home now and supposed to be starting the PHP on Monday



The way it works is they put you in the normal ER, fix your physical stuff, then send you to psych.

I got the same doctor as the one who did the big amount of stitches on me last week.

He told me he's sick of wasting time on me since i do it to myself, and last week he spent 3 hours giving stitcjhes, and now he has to waste more time stitching me when there's people he coukd be helping who dont hurt themselves on purpose.

So just said sorry for wasting your time, left and couldnt stop crying. Then my psychiatrist calls me and says he saw on the computer i left and im not allowed to leave becayse the cuts are too bad, i refused to go back (I was sitting and crying in the bathroom of the hospital and trying to bandage myself back up),



they had to comd get me and bring me to psychiatry and have someone sent to stitch me there. I feel like the most worthless person ever. My psychiatrist was so mad, he filed a complaint against the doctor but im nevrr going there again, even if i cut my arm off.

I've never hated myself more than I do right now. I feel disgusting and worthless and selfish. I really would have just left without bothering with stitches. I only go when they send me from psychiatry.