It hurts me that some vile doctor actually said that to you. I'm glad your psychiatrist filed a complaint! What kind of person says a thing like that to someone who is clearly in both physical AND emotional pain? If anyone is disgusting and selfish, it's HIM. People like that make me sick and I don't think they should be medical professionals if they can't treat people in pain with the compassion they deserve. Does he not see that the emotional cuts are the deepest ones? Or maybe he does and thinks you do that to yourself as well! (Like any of us would?!) If a patient who is hurting is such an inconvenience to him, he really needs to remove himself from the premises. I'm so sorry you had to experience that. Basically suggesting that you are a waste of his time? Who does he think he is?! What an arsewipe!

I agree with ATAT that you are an incredibly strong person. You've suffered so much, and your ability to keep fighting is remarkable. That sort of battle requires immense strength and courage. You have a lot to be proud of.