Hi everyone I don't consider thus sexual abuse if I consented. I actually initiated the act and became upset and agitated when he tried to fight until he did give in. He's 15years older than myself. My therapist said it was normal not to feel I was abused and see it as my fault. He said even to have enjoyed it was normal.

My therepist is missing my point I dont feel those things in a negative way. I wanted those things to happen I needed them to happen. The first time I saw this man I prayed these things would happen. I remember meeting him at 1 and we were inseparable. I remember literally kissing him and my auntie pulling me off of him laughing saying thats inappropriate.

After explaining this I feel we got no where he feels im still in denial. At this point im heated I explained I no the difference between being sexual abused and consenting. When I was 3yrs old my mom would take me to my babysitter. A older lady, her daughter and granddaughter. There were several others living in this 4bedroom apartment including a little boy close tobmy age. To make a long story short I was terrified of these ppl.

They would lock me and him up in the bathroom for hours. We would scream and cry we would be punished. Till this day im terrified terrified of cockroaches. I consider this sexual abuse and its still really hard to talk about. Can anyone relate or give insight. Please.

(Sorry for any bad grammar or punctuation. I'm on my mobile phone my keys kinda stick)