I mention moving, not to escape my connections for drugs or try to run from my problem, but to be in a happier mind state. I am noticeably different year after year during the sunny and warm months. I even find myself turning down drugs, when it's nice out to go run and lift weights. As soon as the weather sucks i get very angry and don't even want to move from the house. Nicer weather would be a game changer for me, although i doubt i'd leave everyone i know up here. It's more of a fun thought than anything else.

As for drug testing, idk if that'd help. I'd simply not care if i failed.

Anyway today was another slip-up day i'm going to change my number or something tomorrow. If i can at least get a few weeks clean again i think i'll have my mind a little straightened out, but for now the most important thing is to avoid drugs at all cost.

Best of luck to all of you, thanks for replying. I hope you're all doing better today. Thanks