Congratulations and good luck with everything! I'm excited for you. I am just starting this journey myself, at nearly 40. The weirdest thing is that I've always felt so much older than I am, literally as if my life is basically over (I remember feeling this way even when I was a teenager, oddly) but in the last few days, since I realized I'm trans and that I'm perfectly cool with embracing it, I just feel as though a weight has been lifted from me. I agree...I've been living my whole life (or most of it, anyway) for other people to a large extent; it's time for my life to be about me. So again...congratulations.