I DEFINETLY relate. I left a job of 19 years...kind of by choice..and kind of not.
In that process...I have lost my whole identity and confidence. I am 52....and I also thought I was going to look for another job...and it has also been 2 years for me. I slipped back into an alcoholic slump...although I am doing better now...it really helped to destroy my confidence and self esteem more.

Have you also noticed that old friends....you find out some of them were really not friends at all? Do you recognize that depression sets in and that old friends seem to play it off like you are exaggerating and just don't want to work?

Family has turned away because I am not the money maker I once was....everything in life has changed for the worst...but when I was working it felt like H*LL on earth as well.

I'm stuck...just like you.