Hey all -

I know that I haven't been on in a while - sorry for that too! Feel like I have fallen into a dark place, somewhat of a hole. It is almost a feeling of detachment, but not. I can see things going on around me, but can not reach up far enough to be seen or heard. Does that make sense? My meds were recently stopped, insurance problems there. Good old insurance! But now I am really in a fog. My therapist has said she sees me withdrawing from my surroundings. I don't want to be like this - it just seems to be happening. I hate the downward sprial I find myself in, yeah I do know all the "proper" things to do to help myself, like force myself to get up and get moving, go for a walk, talk to a friend, write my thoughts down,......... but what if you have a difficult time just doing those things. Looking around and feeling lost - don't know where I am suppose to be at or doing. Wanting to scream, but no words are coming out. UUUUGGGGGG

I ask you please if anyone else has gone through a similar experience, please let me know - how to get the heck out of it. Want to be back among the living

Islander

Thanks for listening to my rant!!!