I really like this one Art.
In my last session T was asking me to imagine that he was my friend instead of my T. I was blocking myself again, mostly because of this. I don't want to indulge too much in imagining him as a friend. It really f-ing hurts. But, at the same time, the masquerade is the work... So... Yeah...
It does work, I think, if you can handle the bloody pain...