Lonely - you know I had a career and everything and I'm actually fairly well off. I retired at 57. That said I never really got going on the relationship area and I've only had one or two close friends - men friends. It's tragic because I've never had a woman friend I could take care of - I really am bitter about this but what can you do? I'm not religious so I don't really believe the fates are against me. All I can say is I hope nobody has to take this route because it's painful. I've been fighting social anxiety all my life and when I was younger it was so bad it kept me from really enjoying what a young man should enjoy. People probably think I'm weird because I've never been with anyone for any length of time - medication and strong will power have saved me. In my 20s, 30s and 40 I kept telling myself that everything was going to be okay and you will be happy - nope. I'm thankful that I'm good company for myself, i.e. I kept myself entertained through the long dark hours. Holidays and summertime were always the worst - just incredibly depressing. Enough of this - it's a broken record.

PS I got a warning for ya - I've already been scammed on Match.com - young women claiming to want old men but they want you to get in touch outside of the website - the world is really screwed up!