The feeling of guilt no one can relate or even come close to know how much this hurts my heart. I wanted to run away and I had a chance to so I let go... and listened to my ex husband. Doing this divorce alone and in secrecy in fear of being judged was so hard. It doesn't matter if I say I've been with this man for 8 years. I have so many regrets. My god he is a loser.

I'll say what I've done so far and I'm still young.. my life isn't over yet my plan is to continue working on myself esp for my little one.

I don't yell. He yells at me. I just tell him to just "please stfu already" at most. I'm passive that's how I've been brought up. It most definitely is not as easy as most people think. I'm most definitely serious- when someone's life is put into factor, it's simply not easy.

Anyway...being positive helps I have a career. I have friends ..I want to hang with them again. I have money and I'm in school for my higher ed. My child is doing well in early childhood I m proud. I accomplished so much for what I've been through at my age. This is a bump on the road. Which happens in life. I can do this. I'm hopeful... altho loss of motivation happens frequently.

Thanks for all the words of enc, and replies. This def helped me. Hope it helps some people as well

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