((((((((((((islander))))))))))))

Yes I have felt exactly the same as you and it isn't very nice.

I send you courage and gentle hugs. You will get better, bit by bit, you have to find something to grasp at. people used to tell me this, and I wondered what on earth I could find within myself to grasp at. I barely had the energy to get out of bed. It was like being in a mud pit, trying to claw my way out. But if I can do it, believe me so can you. This place and the friends I made here made all the difference to me. Keep talking, posting, listening and you will get there sweetie. I offer my hand for you to grab onto when you need it. PM me any time. Good therapy helps, luckily I found a fantastic pdoc who understands me totally. Please believe in yourself and you will find a way out of this hole.

love, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxo