I am so far off from reality. I can't REALLY date anyone. So since my divorce I have slept with 5 married men. I am currently seeing 2 of them.

I am so lonely, have rock bottom self esteem, no confidence, social anxiety disorder, depression.

I want to change but I just revert back to my old ways. I think I do it for excitement because my life sucks.

I have no one to talk to or count on. I am surrounded by extreme negativity and criticism all the time. I wish I was never born.