man I am sooo freaked out. Therapist told me he's leaving at end of month after he's helped me so much. He has worked with my family doc and got me help with lamictal and topamax and i was doing alot better and still am with of course ups and downs. I am right now having a real bad relapse. I havent drank in over a year til today. My husband has started a new job locked in a room with a young pretty girl. He doesnt have to lock the door but he does and he has already started to lie about it, I have caught him in 3 lies about her already. We have been together 12 years and 4 kids. We have been in marriage counceling for a while becaus of trust issues, I have started cutting again and have been crying for 2 days straight. I just had 3 shots of vodka and hate to say it but i feel better self medicating. obviosly the other stuff isnt working. I went by therapist this morning before but he wont be there til wednesday then i went to liquor store. It enabled me to put a smile on my face for my family instead of tears. Any advice is welcomed! Thanks in advance.
Hurting,
Scottie in California