So. Let me start this off by saying that I'm incredibly luck and the girl that I love, loves me. We're a bit of a fledgling relationship (hit two months!!). But now, she's suddenly halfway around the world for work and won't be back for a year or two.

As some background, we have been best friends for 2 years before and so we have a great foundation of trust and respect. We are each others' closest best friends and count of each other as a safe space and advisor for basically anything and everything. And now that we're dating everything is just crazy intensified. For the first time ever, I can imagine a great future with someone and for the first time ever I'm extremely dependent on someone. Which honestly is freaking me out a little. She's constantly on my mind and we've both been throwing our sleeping schedules a little out of whack to make sure we spend a lot of time together.

I want to make sure that we stay positive influences on each other because we're terrified of losing each other. But I am afraid that we can both so easily derail because we care too much? It's incredibly frustrating because I have stuff to do and I'll literally plan it around her schedule and if it looks like it'll be tight, I'll skip some of the things I really should be doing--which cuts heavily into my productivity because our timezone matchup sucks. I've been waiting for my emotions to cool down a little but my feelings only seem to be getting more intense. How do I tear myself away when I don't want to to get stuff done? Or remind myself of the long term good of doing things lol.