My depression has been on and off since 2013. This recent bout has been caused by a few factors, most notably my weight. I was fired from an apprenticeship a few weeks ago - I was fired not too long after the director there had made a comment about my weight, which I find suspicious. I was already self-conscious about how big I am but knowing that other people - especially my boss - were drawing attention to it made me feel so inadequate.
Maybe it's my anxiety flaring up again, since that and depression have always come together with me, but I feel like the reason I was fired was more my weight than incompetence - an apprentice who has only been working a week obviously still has a lot to learn, right?
Once it'd sunk in that I'd been fired, I noticed my mood slipping but attributed it to being a normal reaction to losing my job. It's only been in the past week or so that my symptoms have gotten worse - old thought processes have come back and my motivation to do anything is pretty much nonexistent. I've told my mother that I think my depression is back but the way she reacted (apathetic) led me to believe that she thinks I'm lying so that I can claim benefits.
I spoke to my other half about how it feels like I'm putting it on, but he told me that he's noticed a change in my attitude and he can tell that something is wrong because I've been worried about the doctor possibly laughing at me and telling me there's nothing wrong.
Is it possible that it's all just in my head and there's nothing wrong, or am I letting my anxiety get the best of me?