First, you spoke how I feel about my weight. I am obese and I feel like everyone looks at me for my weight and not my personality. I too have fears that people are going to judge me for wanting to get disability. I do have more than depression but I feel like people think less of me because I am going for disability. I feel, too, that my doctors laugh at me or will laugh at me when I confide in them. All in all, I can't offer help but I can offer a friend that understands you.