Please don't think you are bothering anyone - you were abused by someone you had trusted. This person is not trustworthy and I think he treated you badly. He is not a good person - a decent guy would not purposely try and get a woman friend drunk and then callously have sex with her body. I don't think a decent guy would treat a woman like that.

I am so sorry this happened to you. I would contact a rape crisis center and talk with someone about what happened. I think it would help. A crisis center can advise you on getting help for yourself. Your person-ness was assulted - I think it would help to speak with someone at the rape crisis center about what happened.

I am sorry that someone you had trusted betrayed your trust and treated you so horribly.