Hi 18, I'm sorry you are struggling right now. So hard to learn your T is moving away. Is this therapist the one you and your husband go to for marriage counseling? Based on what you wrote about the trust issues, I hope you can continue marriage counseling, even if it means starting over with a new therapist. Sounds like you guys have some issues to work out that aren't going to go away without some assistance. Individual therapy is also important for your own support. I hope your therapist who is leaving can provide some referrals.

Alcohol is a depressant; it really won't help you feel better. Do you have a buddy you can call for support when you are tempted to drink? I hope you can make today the first day of your next period of sobriety. Good luck and hang in there!