Hi Fijiisland. Don't cry sweetheart. Do the ordinary things people do even when you are down, it makes you feel better even if you didn't want to. I was on meds. for 7 months, and went off due to weight gain and fatigue. I know how hard it is. When I would want to stay in bed for a couple days I would 'schedule' something on a to do list and make myself do the list no matter how I felt. Just getting up and doing them improved my mood. It's a battle every day and even small victories should be celebrated. Hugs and I hope everything works out for you.