So my insurance is about to run out which means I will be paying $150 a week for therapy. My mum told me yesterday that "I can't afford it" and I should just go once a month instead of every week. I was just like "Uh, no!". My mum also said that she can't see any improvement in me and that she doesn't think therapy is helping me. I told her it will take time and she asked me how long and what sort improvements should she expect to see. I really don't know how to answer that.

My mum then started criticising me and saying that "I don't do anything" even though I do. I work full-time and yesterday when we had this conversation it was Saturday so I just wanted to relax at home and watch TV and stuff. I did do some tidying but apparently that is not enough. I think the fact that I am able to go to work everyday despite feeling terrible a lot of the time is an achievement but I guess my Mum doesn't think so. I get so angry at her when she says stuff like this to me . She wants me to talk to her about what is going on with me but how can I when she acts like this?

I have hard time explaining what therapy is like to my Mum especially because psychodynamic therapy is a lot more "abstract" than CBT. My mother still gets psychologists and psychiatrists mixed up so yeah... My T has some articles on her website that explain what psychodynamic therapy is so maybe I could tell my mum to read those.

I love my T and I don't want to stop seeing her. I feel like going every week is important for me right now because I am still trying to build trust and open up to T and going on a regular basis helps with that. $150 a week is a bit of stretch for me though so I guess I will need to talk to T about this when I next see her even though it is kind of embarrassing for me. Ugh, why does it all have to be so complicated?