I didn't exactly call it artificial. I wrote in a poem that it "masquerades as personal". And when I read the snippet of poem I had written (and scribbled out, btw) she seemed a little offended. I was merely trying to in some way put words to this confusing relationship and my feelings for her. maybe in retrospect trying to talk myself out of my feelings. i don't know. I wish I had been more eloquent. My feelings seem to defy explanation.