Back when I was first in T it was hard to see my T's caring because I was accustomed to hearing caring words that had no true care behind them from both my ex and my mom. It was hard to believe that he wasn't pretending, just saying stuff. That's what got me into so much trouble with previous T. She didn't understand at first that I couldn't believe her. But that *was* my projection. It took a long time to see that, and I had to sit with my disbelief for all that time...
But the drama that we're discussing here, that's different. That's real. Life itself is a drama, if you will.
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'...
At poor peace I sing
To you strangers (though song
Is a burning and crested act,
The fire of birds in
The world's turning wood,
For my sawn, splay sounds,)
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Dylan Thomas, Author's Prologue
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