I guess I understand now why I feel so uncomfortable around men I feel like they can't be my friends without at least trying to sleep with me which just kind of enforces my depression and despair because I always wanted a male friend that could have my back. There was this one male friend but he was an idiot joked that he showed his friends my boobs I didn't think it was funny and I attacked him I have just felt deep sadness because I feel like I can't be friends with guys with out them trying to sexually assault me with their hands.