I've been free of cutting for four years, free of self harm in general since December of last year

and no one cares. no one gives me any credit for doing aynthing good with myself, no one notices anything no one says anything. no, "i'm glad your better now kori" none of that

So what is the damn point in recovering? why the hell can't I just slice up my entire ****ing arm right now? why can't i jsut grab my old box cutter and have at it? why can't i do any of the **** that made me feel better so many years ago when I felt angry and upset since NOBODY gives a **** what i do?

im on edge and i really want to scratch my scars until they bust open andbleed again

or i'll just hunt down that damn boxcutter

i mean, seriously, who gives a **** about me anyway?