I'm new to the whole self harming thing. only been doing it about a year and a half. cutting and burning preferring the latter, there's something about the smell that goes with it that makes it all the more special. but now I'm covered in scars that I get questions about frequently and I don't know how to answer them.

And trying to explain this to my family seems to be a dead end, they all care about me and I know that, they just want me to get better. but when I'm at the bottom of the barrel and my brain is racing a mile a minute about how I'm no good and I'm never going to make it, all it takes is a small piece of hot steel to silence those thoughts... even if it is just for a few minutes. I've tried explaining this to them but they just cant wont or ever truly get it, and it makes me feel sad and crazy...

And right now I'm at the point where I'm doing this daily, and I don't know what to do to stop it...