ive been a fake my whole life...
but if i turn into the real me ill get in trouble...
i dont wanna hurt anyone...
but people have hurt me...

sorry... im an idiot sometimes...
then i bleed... but now i sleep...
i will dream... but never peep..
it is to late... to find the escape...
it is my fate.... to never wake...


hmm...
i forgot to mention that we moved out of the house that we came back to from foster care last year..
so i spent... like... i dunno.. 10 years there... i did alot of things there...
now when i walk outside here at this house... it feels really weird... i feel like i dont belong...