T, I don't understand how I feel about you lately. I feel like I love you. But then I think about that mirror thing you said you do, and then I think about projections and transference, and how I don't really know 'you-you' at all, I know only the you that you choose to show me in our sessions, and and and it's so limiting, just having you in that 50 minute block, but my feelings exist outside of that block of time too, and it's so confusing. I feel like I'm a little kid.