Sherri: We are beginning to understand what it truly is because even though we are co-conscience....it's only enough to link us together in a somewhat cohesive manner, but not enough to function as a singleton- at least that's our version of it. The memories stay with the one that experiences them and it's like the light never goes out....even when the body is somewhat "asleep": that's a lot why we drink- to shut down and escape. Sad, very sad.

Our inner world is dark and gray with hundreds of Other's standing by in formation, ready to perform their appointed duty....aware and ready to step in because being discovered or regarded as strange is our greatest fear (even though you can stamp a great big red 'FAIL' on it).

It's like I have no idea what the workers do all day- I just know that they work because I'm like really sore and tired all the time , but I do know what I did or say the other day- sorta.

This goes for the Others too...in their own conscienceness. After years of experience (like 45 of them), we still get confused and conflicted, but able to act our way out if it....or until recent where we have gotten tired of pretending to be who we are not but an image- the image of who we want the world to think we are. For this reason we have never sought help....fooling those around us.... But especially ourselves. We've finally pulled the blinders off and wish to seek treatment, but our insurance is about to refuse coverage. It's all so vexing. Our anxiety of late has been just awful, driving our blood pressure sky high. I fear we will die of a heart attack before any rectifying can begin. Just saying.