Is anyone here unable to work due to their moods with the BPD? And maybe in combination with other disabilities?

I am really terrified to even look for a job because the BPD and other conditions made me stop working a job I had for 19 years. I feel now like I am worthless....and don't even have motivation to search for a job.

Although, last night I did look at my resume that I haven't looked at in 2 years and found a glimmer of hope that I could possibly find a job in a less hostile environment.

But, then I wonder...was I the one making the environment hostile.