Because there is a 50/50 chance that I could be wrong. I don't know how to tell which makes me paranoid. I can't tell the difference if someone is plotting on me or just having a bad day. I can ask them, but if they have a hidden agenda, they're just going to lie and I can't tell if they're lying.

Paranoia sucks. Most of my problems stem from it...and I developed it when I was told that I have Asperger's. I'm always the last to know about everything....last to figure it out because I don't pay attention to people's drama, body signals, emotions, etc. I don't get it.... Don't understand it and can't figure it out. Makes me very anxious...always wondering....if he's content or if he's plotting something. It's a horrible place to be.

I could leave and make a huge mess, but if I'm wrong...

I should have never gotten married. Holy crap, young people reading this...if you have been diagnosed early, be thankful so you know not to make a mess of your life!