I think sometimes even my team from psychiatry finds it hard to believe because the ER doctors would not come out and say these things directly to psychiatry. I had this one social worker who was completely horrible to me, but in front of my therapist and pdoc just acted like it was some mild form of "tough love." It drove me nuts. I even said to my T, "you know, she doesn't talk to me in front of you the same way she talks to me alone." She actually admitted that it happens though.

It's hard to be treated within psychiatry now like I'm in desperate need of help, or going through a crisis abd being given more and more support, and then feel like I don't have the right to medical help in the ER. It's really confusing about whether this is an illness or not. They are so nice/understanding within psychiatry (although my pdoc can be kind of strict when it comes to my safety), that it just feels so awful/strange to be treated like that in the ER. I almost wish my T had been with me so she would know how bad it can be. The doctor hadn't even closed the examining room door and a ton of peoplr were in the hallway to hear our exchange and see



I don't think I've ever felt so ashamed.